[b'day to jess]

29/11/2009

Raining early in the morning

but laz night was a great night

jess's celebrated her b'day at vintry

and at here

i wanna wish her

happy b'day~

all the best =)

真的是时候了吗？

我知道那答案了

幸好我还有自智知名

连眼泪都不知是为谁而哭

我到底怎么了

是时候了吧

...

[fair]

god always fair to everyone

pls be fair to me

pls let me hv the ability to hold you

rachel pls don't cry

pls be tough

...

[endless love]

as ppl said

ntg will last long

and now i believe

no love will last 4ever

nothing is call endless love

but i can c that from u

u and "her"

...

[Quattro night]

last night quattro 1st year anniversary

happy that u were there

but...









anyway thanks...

bearing and guessing

i m stuck
what should i do?

this morning when we reached Sunway
and suddenly you asked me
"you still thinking about "she" and me?"
(actually i only think once when that day i asked you
now i don't dare to think anymore)

and i answered
"ennm..yaa nooo..." (confussing)
smiling...

and the last sentence
"i jz wan something long term and if you'r nt, pls tell me, don't waste my time..."
smile at you and went down from the car.
and my heart was aching...

(do you know, i always say something opposite from what i'm thinking)
i said i don't care about when u gonna leave me
i said i jz care the moment we 2gether but don't care how long will it last
all is nt accurate
i don't dare to answer what's in my heart =(

is hardly to guess what's in ur mind
(...jz let me keep guessing)


i'll bear...
keep bearing...
and tears keep falling down from my heart...

confussing

!%@#^&*
is not love
is a game
once you step wrong
you'll be the loser
and stuck there 4ever

as wat my friends said
there is no such thing in between
you couldn't know someone from this way
some ppl treats friends very good
but doesn't mean treat gf/bf the same too
is hardly to judge a person this way

and yet
is getting complicated
i never hv this feeling b4
i need something to guide me
should i continue this or give up
m i wasting my time...?

if you really love me
you should love me with who i m
but nt wan me to be who u wan
maybe some other things could change
i'm willing to change and accept
because what you'r searching is same as me
something different
but don't you think is so cruel
you always wan me to cry infront of you
and that day i cried
is nt becoz i still miss her
but is becoz my old wound started to ache
and things change.....

everyone hv his/her own stories behind the scene
everyone hv his/her past
and if u really love him/her
you should accept
but of course he/she oso hv to prove something to u
but nt keep looking behind

sob.... T-T


sometimes i can c through ur eyes
ur expression...
you still will think of her
i don't know is that u still love her
or still miss her
but i jz know she's still in ur mind

i understand,
is hardly to put down a person you loved b4
but there is so many way could work
if a person can easily put down the previous loved so fast
and love someone easily in a short period
then i can tell u..
that ppl is so dangerous!
but i don't wish u hide ur feeling toward me...
sigh








confussing.................





jz be who i m and wat i wan =)
+U +U rachel goh~ !!!!!

21/11/2009

21/11/2009

left out for so many days
so now nid to update my bloggie

something end but haven't fullstop
something just started but it's only jz a sentence
hopefully a sentence will become sentences.
is so confusing and complicated
i jz wan something simple
but seems things doesn't work out like wat i think

life is passing by
and i realized many things
some burden that i really can put down
this the way i can make myself happier

and felt satisfied for my life
someone told me
i hv to enjoy living my life
satisfied and appreciate with wat i hv
sleep enough
and live happily ^___^

previous i was thinking this couldn't happen
but now i'm letting you to go
and giving myself a new life

stay happy~



**someone i appreciated alot
since the day u went off
she started to stay by my side
cheer me up and take care of me
we knew the feeling started to go wrong
so we choosed to stay out from another way
and hopefully we'll still close like previous
maybe you'r once of the guardian angel that sent from the heaven
jz wanna say thanks~
2gether +u to achieve our goals ya..

[Misses]

The lastest me~
i got holidays from friday to sunday included my mc and offday
and this will be my last mc for this month
hopefully i won't get sick anymore
and hopefully my wound will recover soon
(pray hard for my wound)
i dun wish my hand will hv the scar
coz it make my hand looks so ugly


many things happened in this new month
although is jz few days until now
but many things changed
some people leaved
some people joined
some people is back
and there is only you the special one who stayed.
i dun wish u think much and make things worst k.

i hv found a secret place in my heart
a place with cueing bird songs
pretty blue birds fly
blooming blossoms around
fluffing cloud with smile
tasty muffins on the table
a peaceful place =)
love it <3

honestly, i started to dislike my work.
is worst than my previous internship
i missed swiss garden hotel k.l
i missed that period when internship at there
while u still by my side
i missed all my friends at there
misses <3

2/11/2009

A new week and new month for me to start over everything
like usual woke up at 12pm and starting to prepare for work
actually i quite enjoy my work but then sometimes really felt so tired



Yesterday was my offday
we went to fishing and prawning in a rainy day
haha.. sound fun right..
waiting there for few hours
and finally~~
we got a very small prawn
and no fish for me
this is how ppl train their patient
and enjoy the process..

our small prawn

after all i was pretty tired
but i still wan to go for basketball
b4 that i fall down
when playing and running on the lake side
"WTH! my hello kitty shoes make me fall down!
but i still love it so much~~!"
i'll nt gonna blame on my shoes coz of it,
this is my 1st time fall and i feel the pain
but i still very brave, stand up and run again
although my wound was so pain and bleeding

it's like my life
no matter what happen i still nid to look forward
be tough and strong ^^
sometimes will feel tired and lonely
sometimes will feel wanna cry out loudly
but everything will be alright after the rain =)

GAMBATTE kudasai Racheeelll^^

讨厌

就这样吗？？？ ？？？？？？？？？？？























很多问号出现当我想起你!















这样的爱情能撑多久啊？？









很多 很想说可是我都没办法说出口

就这样吧
随便啦
你想怎样就怎样啦





















哎哟！
我的心怎么那么不舒服啊！
讨厌这种感觉！
太多个“她”出现在我脑海..
只能逼自己不想，逼自己接受。