Slow

without "you" , "you" , "you"...
i m still looking forward for my life

01 Oct 2009
12:26am
-I m still awake and going to sleep soon
but this few days my stomach really nt feeling well
feel wanna vomit too
today i went out to fetch my granny
while driving, i felt like everything is getting slower and slower
slow until i felt like so blank in my mind
after sent my granny home, i went back to my home awhile
hoh~ home sweet home...
my home that really belongs to me
and i m belongs to my home
took a short nap and at last
i hv to leave my home too..
today everything was so slow...
maybe few days ago kept hang out vf friends
and now suddenly got time for me to rest and rethink everything...
argh.. i wanna rest rest rest....!
Rest and start a new long journey~~~~

for you

all ur words cross my heart
and there is always a lie behind it
baby boy
can you save me out of this mess
but it seems worst
and i wanted to say
i really fall for u..

-Rachel-

If u r NOT

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move ur mouse to the upper right there and click x...
thanks yo
arigato...
peace...

不要拥有就不会失去

我知道我不能拥有
也不敢去拥有
所以选择了不要拥有
我。。。
害怕孤单的感觉
害怕寂寞的感觉
害怕失落的感觉
害怕黑暗的感觉
更害怕失去你的感觉
所以不要拥有就不会失去了。。。

Bitch!

do any of u heard b4
"barking dog will never bite ppl??"
and the barking's dogs following with 2 bitchs was out from cage few days ago...
ran to others house and bark like those mad dogs...
omg~~~~
pls go back to ur cage la..
my GOD!!!!
don't ever try to act like a good dog la.......
coz u all r idiot dogs!!
the another 2 such a bitchs!
and the funniest thing is...
mad dog summore wan2 judge on other's personality...
oh gosh....~~~~
DOGs has no qualified to judge on others...
coz they r DOGS...! XD

My heart said:

i dun care
i dun mind
i nt gonna care anything about u all anymore!!!
u all mess my life.....!
is this the life i wanted?
i m not belongs to ur world
but my heart was inside..
any guys can bring me out?
tried to loved..
tried to give up..
tried to cared..
but u all really mess my life vf ur fucking emotional life...!
*i hate to c ur life vf her
but i can't do anything
dislike..! and jealous..!
(nt for u asshole)

2day is my bro's b'day...
omg...! i 4get about it...!
jz now my daddy called me up..
and asked me did i wish my bro..
argh... my bro 21st b'day...
how could i 4get???
i wanted to wish my bro but i can't get him =(

*Bro, how r u?
r u fine with ur life at there?
hv anyone celebrate ur b'day with u at there?
don't feel lonely k... coz we r always here for u...
and at here..i wanted to wish u~
HaPpy 21st BirtHdaY ya~~
LOVE u so much...
wish u all the best...
take care ya...

argh................ i m so nervous....
wat should i do?
the coming monday is my orientation day for my internship..
and it gonna take me 3months time to finish it...
my placement is at Dessert's Bar...
but nt sure which dessert's bar..maybe subang, maybe k.l...
so my friends remember come visit me ya...

i still remember the previous intership that u still by my side...
u always fetch me up n down from my work..
everytime after work, i were so happy coz i know u r the 1st one i gonna meet later..
and sometimes u really make me so surprised...
suddenly appears after my work..
but now u r nt here anymore...
everything i hv to learn n do it myself...
i know is different between working and studying...
i still remember my 1st day of my previous intership...
i cried coz of i can't suit the life of working...
i dunnno how to handle all small matters...
and u were the one who teached me...
u teached me how to handle ppl's attitude..
how to make myself more happy..
and wake me up in the morning..
haha~
btw..wish u always happy ya ^^
treat ur next with ur heart too...

你

新的一天
我要从新做 我自己了~
我不会再找你了。。
你送我 的也掉了
我会好好地把它收着
因为不想再烦你了~
我知道我可以的。。
^________^

Hello Kitty系列

甜美又可爱的
Hello Kitty系列
Casio EXILIM z2

现在就想拥有~

。。。

我还是很不开心
我突然哭了
我骗不了自己还是那么的想念你
每当热闹结束后
我就是还是一个人
我很想念有你在我身边的时候
朋友都说我很执着
是因为我还放不下你
你说过我是你的公主
为什么你舍得把你的公主抛弃呢？

say goodbye to my facebook

i felt so sad vf my facebook
it gonna leave me too
is jz like how u leave me
maybe as like wat she said
fated to lost everything in once
i should think in positive
i should delete all my memories
4get about the past and those photos
jz let it be.......

不明白

我不明白很多很多东西
爱情不是很简单的吗?
为什么所有开始一定会有结束?
哎呀... 真的不明白...

昨晚我在沙滩上
看着天上有很多很多的星星
我也看见了你
不知现在的你如何呢..

Love Bike

someone was driving
and suddenly talked about love bite
my little bro started to curious and asked

br0: what is love....bi..te? bi..ke?

and suddenly in my mind.. can't think of anything

i said: is....love BIke.. motor bike... brroooong....

bro: ooh.. is love bike brooong... so wat's that?

i: when u c a couple kiss kiss.. it's wat love bike meant..

so whenever the couple sitting infront of me kiss each other..
my little bro will said.....

Brronnng.........

love this photo ^-^

20/09/09

@T-bowl

sudden

the scene that scared me
the dream that wake me
and i hope it nt gonna happen....
oh.. my god.. pls stop the bad scene and bad dream....
coz i wish you could always stay by my side
scared to lost you..
scared to have you..
and wish everything could be alright
and nt gonna change...

too much

i hv too many things wanna write..
too many things cross my mind..
wat should i write? huh..

19/9/09

saturday~ 19/09/09

huh~ wake up automatically at 9something
dunno y now adays can't really sleep more d
on9 awhile, listen song awhile
and my hand start to itchy
click click click~
boom.. the stupiak photos out
the more i c the more i hv no feel
thinking y m i so silly
y i so care few months ago
and i realize something~~
i m happy =)
huhu... jz wanna say thanks you thanks you..
for letting us go...
we r really different world
will nvr know each other
and now i found myself

myself that love FREEdom!
love to be an ordinary person
a very ordinary girl that love her life vF freedom ^-^
do wateva she like
wateva she felt
and express wateva she wan..
yeah*

love me with who i m
aand no hate in my life
don't mess vf my life if u dislike me
this wat i wanna say

wanna thanks to friends that always by my side
love u all so much~
wanna apologize to friends that i always not by ur side
i m sorry but will replace it k~
muax ~

当你想着我

当你想着我

点点的星空长长的银河
有你写过的歌
北半球是冬夜绵绵下着雪
多想你看见
弯弯的彩虹亮亮的天色
你是否快乐
抬头看看天有我在你的明天
别怕黑(我怕黑)
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在安静的时刻
同一个宇宙有两个尽头
我听见你的感动
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在喧哗的时刻
一个人寂寞两颗心都懂
我陪在你梦中拥抱你的温热
酸酸的想念甜甜的心愿
要等你实现
越长的时间我就越能够肯定
你最美（我最美）
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在安静的时刻
同一个宇宙有两个尽头
我听见你的感动
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在喧哗的时刻
一个人寂寞两颗心都懂
我陪在你梦中拥抱你的温热
说好了不让你太担忧
想念你的温柔
等到再见面我们也更成熟再不放手~
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在安静的时刻
同一个宇宙有两个尽头
我听见你的感动
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在喧哗的时刻
一个人寂寞两颗心都懂
我陪在你梦中拥抱你的温热
一个人寂寞两颗心都懂
我陪在你梦中拥抱你的温热

我是个笨蛋

笨蛋笨蛋笨蛋~~！！！

有时我还自以为自己很聪明
其实我是个超级大笨蛋！
我终于醒了。。
原来没有你的日子并不孤单
我还以为我不能没有你
还以为没有你的日子很孤单
可是并不是~

想回我们的过去
快乐的 成了我的回忆
悲哀的 成了我的记忆
一想到了 伤口就很痛
所以我选择 不想！

可是我还是一个大笨蛋~~~
想到你
我真的觉得我很笨耶。。

days without you

long long long time no write blog d~~

so miss u my baby blog.. coz you r the only one who knew me..
i been so tough for myself, my friends and family..
coz i dun wann anyone to c me like this..

when the day i went into hospital to wash my stomach..
coz i hv done some silly thing becoz of her..
i felt so down so down..
i jz wish she was beside me..
holding my hands and ask call me BB..

everything is jz end like this....
i tried to hold her..but she was leaving too..
what we promised each others all became air and bubbles...
she is the one who asked me to hold her tight, nt to let her go..
but now she is the one who wan2 go..
and left me behind here all alone..

i felt my world is so empty without her...
i realize many things after she went out from my world..
i dun nid anything, i only want her...!
but where is she now???

everyday i dream of her, crying in my dream and ask her nt to leave me..
this edy become my wound... a wound that will never been erase 4EVA!!!!
i hate you becoz i loved you so much!

now adays without her in my life..
all our memories keep flash back in my mind....

our 1st meet.. my b'day.. pd trips.. langkawi trips... CNY at her house, at bukit bintang c fireworks.. at suppper club, poppy, barce and at euphoria ( she gv someone pok mong coz of me o.O hahaha very funny right?) every single things all in my mind.......

i wish i could go back those places alone... and jz think of her...
imagine if i at langkawi the house we stay b4, the beach that we overnight at there...
i miss it......... i know u won't acc me back there d...
i won't 4get everything everything......................

my family tot i was too stress in my studies...
so they very worried about me...
i dunno who can i tell about eveyrthing in my hearts...

i wan2 go to beach... and shout..............!
shout loudly....

i got so many things wanna ask u babe..
i saw recently u r so happy with ur life without me..
m i really so bad?
i still remember wat u wrote for me on my christmas gift..
i really very sad can't make u happy...
if the time could turn back.. i wish we r jz best friends..
i reaally can't accept the truth without u in my life..
do u know u'r part of my life..
how could i accept the truth?
2 cure ways.... 1)pretend u r dead, 2)keep tell myself u'll come back on someday..
and i choosed the 2nd... i m living in my own world.. my own imagination..
i kept all the msg that i sent to u in my draft...and jz pretend i'd send the msg to u...
m i crazy?? it jz becoz i too miss u....
i nid to go every week base on my appointment with counseling psychology...
i couldn't found anyone to talk vf my heart...
is jz counseling psychology....
m i mad now???
i wish i m totally mad and jz leave this place...
i wish i could close my eyes and never open...
i wish i never born in this world..
i know the counseling section could help me to recover but it's oso jz depends on me...
whether i wanna recover anot...
although my mind recover... how about my heart??
who gonna heal my heart??
can a doctor jz kill me with his knife pls.....
im suffer!!!!!!!!!!!
god pls help me out of here...!

i m so sad....
i still remember wat we said...
"how if one day i become crazy?"
"no matter wat happened, i'll still will take care on you and nt gonna leave you.."
and this wat i promised you...
"how about if i dead, i become ghost.. will u scared on me?"
u jz smile to me...

sigh...