[冬季节快乐]

冬季节到了。。
冬季节快乐哦~！
传说中，吃了汤圆就会长大一岁，也就是说又老一岁了=）

[没有了]

突然听到titanic这首歌
想着他们故事里 那么纯真的爱情
真的很可惜 相爱都要被天拆散
现在还有那么纯真的爱情了吗？
还有什么叫天长地久了吗？
真的没有了。。。

[缺氧]

记得有人说过 说我一定会找到更好的。
旧的不去 新的也不会来嘛。
一直都 很努力的学着。
在还没完全恢复的伤口 一直都有好心人再帮我敷药。
我知道 伤口好了就不疼了。
我也知道 伤口一定会好的。
虽然偶尔会作痛 可是这我都习惯了。
希望不要在我伤口 撒盐就好了。
真的很遗憾 为什么我把它给弄丢了
也很遗憾 为什么你就不好好地珍惜
我真的 缺氧了。

[Today18Dec]

today i woke up at 6.30am in the morning, forcing myself to sleep but can't really sleep well.. keep awake in the night.. worrying u.. sigh
walked around the house and dunnno wat to do.. so started gaming.. until now 9.43 breakfast time =) i nid to find some food to fill my stomach since last night i never take my dinner... hungry... huhu... this is jz the 1st day i m living like a normal ppl life ^^ hv to be continuous.. sleep early at 10.30pm everynight and woke up early~ if can go jogging as well... really hv to change my life style seems like my previous life is so upsidedown.. and is because i finish my internship, the time of working is oso one of the problem. but now everything is different ^^ i wanna live life lively~

[sorry]

laz night i was driving around hv nowhere to go
crying alone after mum scolded me
now only i know what she wan
and my mistakes will nt be 4give
that's always a wound from u for me
a very deep wound that affect my life
do u know??
i never knew that this could be so serious..
and i'll prove to mum someday..now i m speechless coz there was a mistake
but i never regret wht i hv done and what i m doing..
that's all is my personal... T-T
mum should tell me earlier that you disagree.. but not now..
im..................i m so sorry...............................
don't force me with something i dun like..... pls..........

[rest pls]

today is my rest day
but i can't really rest well
i m so tired... i really nid to rest to walk further path..
but my brain is nt resting.. keep think of u and dream of u...
wat m i worrying? wat m i thinking?
worrying when u gonna leave me...?
why my thinking is so f*cking negative??
rachel goh dun think so much la! shut ur mind and rest la!
hmph............

[Back]

finally back to m'sia ~ really miss m'sia so much!
sitting in the flight and looked down...
i can see bluiie sea and greenish m'sia^^
and i can said.. i love m'siia so much~~!!
feel so warm when arrived here...
really home sweet home
muax~~~ <3

[不知]

在夜生活的你还蛮开心的
世上有谁是不要自由的？
有谁是不爱玩的？
我让你玩不是因为我不在乎
而是我想你过得开心点
若玩出火，那我也就认输
你并不适合白天的生活
你爱玩这是不能否认的
我伤心看见你和她们那么亲密
我无话可说。

[想]

前天喝醉酒，说了很多废话，其实都没什么，你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱，何况那算什么伤。。。

算了。。 最近都不懂怎么了。。是有开心过。。开心的越多，伤心会更多。。
告诉自己在一起开心就好，你开心就好，珍惜现在所拥有的。。不会想那么多。。

不是我要想那么远，说远也不是很远，说近也不是很近。。
我只是突然想到对于自己的学业及未来才会提出这要求。。
我真的不懂你到底在想些什么。。

对于你最新的她，你好像对她动了情。。
你不知自己对她是什么感觉。。
对于你以前的她，你也好像都放不下。。
我会给你时间 想你到底要的是什么。。
不要急。。慢慢想。。
你知道我一直都会尊重你的决定的。。
记得不要把同情和爱情混乱。。

[梁文音]

梁文音【最幸福的事】完整版 MV

【紫玫瑰】 梁文音- 愛一直存在 自製MV (HQ)

梁文音《哭過就好了》MV


我一直都很欣赏她的歌
也代表了我的心情
很好听哦~~

[5thDec]

5thDecember
Saturday~
feeling so good coz 2moro gonna be my offday =)
that's the day i always waiting for....
so many things gonna do advance....

so happy today..
saw many new married couple~
so pretty and handsome
especially malay wedding ceremony..
i love their baju~~~

today is a good day?
if there are still... might be...
hope that is a good day for me to work oso =D
heheeee

[inactivated]

my number jz inactivated, oh gosh.. i can't sms and call out.. help...
but as what i agreed with my dad that we should inactivate our lines
included my younger sis and younger bro
they r too young to called so much...
jz be fair.. i oso same with them... inactivated...
hopefully i can survive with my new number...

希望会是开心的十二月

我一直都很期待 的十二月
终于来临了

也就是射手座宝宝的月哦~
开心开心 …^_____^#

欢迎欢迎射手宝宝的诞生哦~
希望多点射手座宝宝在周围。
因为射手座是开心的
可以让身边的人都开心~

十二月 十二月
大家都开始布置圣诞树了
我自己也爬上了椅子
把自己的渴望放在最高
希望大家可以看到我的祝福~

真的很开心
当昨晚我和同时们
一起把店布置得很美
真的很美

但这美的时刻
还是有结束的一天。。。

十二月的早晨

很苦
苦得我很想哭
哪句是真 哪句是假？
一时给了我蜜糖，然后再加苦瓜。
忽冷忽热真难受

过去已是过去
我从来就没想过有回头的一天
我知道我一定做到
只想把时间停留在有你的时候

刚起身的我
看着窗外发呆了一下
看着那冷冷的马路
想着到底怎么了
怎么不开心

告诉我该怎么做
我的路该怎么走
。。。

[b'day to jess]

29/11/2009

Raining early in the morning

but laz night was a great night

jess's celebrated her b'day at vintry

and at here

i wanna wish her

happy b'day~

all the best =)

真的是时候了吗？

我知道那答案了

幸好我还有自智知名

连眼泪都不知是为谁而哭

我到底怎么了

是时候了吧

...

[fair]

god always fair to everyone

pls be fair to me

pls let me hv the ability to hold you

rachel pls don't cry

pls be tough

...

[endless love]

as ppl said

ntg will last long

and now i believe

no love will last 4ever

nothing is call endless love

but i can c that from u

u and "her"

...

[Quattro night]

last night quattro 1st year anniversary

happy that u were there

but...









anyway thanks...

bearing and guessing

i m stuck
what should i do?

this morning when we reached Sunway
and suddenly you asked me
"you still thinking about "she" and me?"
(actually i only think once when that day i asked you
now i don't dare to think anymore)

and i answered
"ennm..yaa nooo..." (confussing)
smiling...

and the last sentence
"i jz wan something long term and if you'r nt, pls tell me, don't waste my time..."
smile at you and went down from the car.
and my heart was aching...

(do you know, i always say something opposite from what i'm thinking)
i said i don't care about when u gonna leave me
i said i jz care the moment we 2gether but don't care how long will it last
all is nt accurate
i don't dare to answer what's in my heart =(

is hardly to guess what's in ur mind
(...jz let me keep guessing)


i'll bear...
keep bearing...
and tears keep falling down from my heart...

confussing

!%@#^&*
is not love
is a game
once you step wrong
you'll be the loser
and stuck there 4ever

as wat my friends said
there is no such thing in between
you couldn't know someone from this way
some ppl treats friends very good
but doesn't mean treat gf/bf the same too
is hardly to judge a person this way

and yet
is getting complicated
i never hv this feeling b4
i need something to guide me
should i continue this or give up
m i wasting my time...?

if you really love me
you should love me with who i m
but nt wan me to be who u wan
maybe some other things could change
i'm willing to change and accept
because what you'r searching is same as me
something different
but don't you think is so cruel
you always wan me to cry infront of you
and that day i cried
is nt becoz i still miss her
but is becoz my old wound started to ache
and things change.....

everyone hv his/her own stories behind the scene
everyone hv his/her past
and if u really love him/her
you should accept
but of course he/she oso hv to prove something to u
but nt keep looking behind

sob.... T-T


sometimes i can c through ur eyes
ur expression...
you still will think of her
i don't know is that u still love her
or still miss her
but i jz know she's still in ur mind

i understand,
is hardly to put down a person you loved b4
but there is so many way could work
if a person can easily put down the previous loved so fast
and love someone easily in a short period
then i can tell u..
that ppl is so dangerous!
but i don't wish u hide ur feeling toward me...
sigh








confussing.................





jz be who i m and wat i wan =)
+U +U rachel goh~ !!!!!

21/11/2009

21/11/2009

left out for so many days
so now nid to update my bloggie

something end but haven't fullstop
something just started but it's only jz a sentence
hopefully a sentence will become sentences.
is so confusing and complicated
i jz wan something simple
but seems things doesn't work out like wat i think

life is passing by
and i realized many things
some burden that i really can put down
this the way i can make myself happier

and felt satisfied for my life
someone told me
i hv to enjoy living my life
satisfied and appreciate with wat i hv
sleep enough
and live happily ^___^

previous i was thinking this couldn't happen
but now i'm letting you to go
and giving myself a new life

stay happy~



**someone i appreciated alot
since the day u went off
she started to stay by my side
cheer me up and take care of me
we knew the feeling started to go wrong
so we choosed to stay out from another way
and hopefully we'll still close like previous
maybe you'r once of the guardian angel that sent from the heaven
jz wanna say thanks~
2gether +u to achieve our goals ya..

[Misses]

The lastest me~
i got holidays from friday to sunday included my mc and offday
and this will be my last mc for this month
hopefully i won't get sick anymore
and hopefully my wound will recover soon
(pray hard for my wound)
i dun wish my hand will hv the scar
coz it make my hand looks so ugly


many things happened in this new month
although is jz few days until now
but many things changed
some people leaved
some people joined
some people is back
and there is only you the special one who stayed.
i dun wish u think much and make things worst k.

i hv found a secret place in my heart
a place with cueing bird songs
pretty blue birds fly
blooming blossoms around
fluffing cloud with smile
tasty muffins on the table
a peaceful place =)
love it <3

honestly, i started to dislike my work.
is worst than my previous internship
i missed swiss garden hotel k.l
i missed that period when internship at there
while u still by my side
i missed all my friends at there
misses <3

2/11/2009

A new week and new month for me to start over everything
like usual woke up at 12pm and starting to prepare for work
actually i quite enjoy my work but then sometimes really felt so tired



Yesterday was my offday
we went to fishing and prawning in a rainy day
haha.. sound fun right..
waiting there for few hours
and finally~~
we got a very small prawn
and no fish for me
this is how ppl train their patient
and enjoy the process..

our small prawn

after all i was pretty tired
but i still wan to go for basketball
b4 that i fall down
when playing and running on the lake side
"WTH! my hello kitty shoes make me fall down!
but i still love it so much~~!"
i'll nt gonna blame on my shoes coz of it,
this is my 1st time fall and i feel the pain
but i still very brave, stand up and run again
although my wound was so pain and bleeding

it's like my life
no matter what happen i still nid to look forward
be tough and strong ^^
sometimes will feel tired and lonely
sometimes will feel wanna cry out loudly
but everything will be alright after the rain =)

GAMBATTE kudasai Racheeelll^^

讨厌

就这样吗？？？ ？？？？？？？？？？？























很多问号出现当我想起你!















这样的爱情能撑多久啊？？









很多 很想说可是我都没办法说出口

就这样吧
随便啦
你想怎样就怎样啦





















哎哟！
我的心怎么那么不舒服啊！
讨厌这种感觉！
太多个“她”出现在我脑海..
只能逼自己不想，逼自己接受。

30/10/2009

30 Oct 2009 雨天

流浪的感觉真好
什么都不想 就一直走
走到累了 就停下来
休息一下 呵呵

下着大雨的整夜
让我想起了很多
我一人呆在车里
抱着我的bear
就这样睡着了

醒来时 已是天亮了
又是新的一天啦！
加油~~~

28/10/2009

28/10/2009


昨晚的我都不知干嘛
明明对于你们俩的东西没怎样
可是却自暴自弃
神经出了问题吧
算了，有时真的不懂你是怎样的
对我一路来都很好的你
让我觉得很可怕
可怕的是你，还是我呢

今天工作上就没什么特别啦
就是慢慢的学习
很多客人都以为我是参种的或是马来人。。
奇怪。。。

现在的我，一个人在mcD。。。
3.51 am了。。
有点爱睡了。。

晚安^______^

25/10/2009

25/10/2009 晴天

今天心情比较好了
现在的我 只想做工
什么都不想了。

昨晚做到1点，驾到巴生的mcD停了下来
就在那发呆，也在车睡着了
听说在车睡着真的会死人
我真的不信咯！
如果我真的死了
我没任何遗憾。

我每天的生活就这样
醒来上一下线
3点就要去工作了
我就快要破产了因为打油
死笨蛋车不要吃我那么多油啦
1点半夜才放工，累时就停路边睡觉
这样就是我最近的生活了。

每当开车回家时
真的不懂要去哪里
知道回到家 就算几累 都是睡不着的
每晚就流浪到4-5点
累。。。！

我知道这次我一定要独立了
我知道我长大了
我也知道你已经不在我身边了。。。



昨晚听到一首歌 “最幸福的事”
这首歌让我想起了你 那时的我们感情已出问题了
可是我再也没想过 这次当我听见这首歌时 你已不在我身边了。
很遗憾 为什么当初的我 不会珍惜 只会哭哭闹闹。。。

24/10/2009

24/10/2009 晴天

一天又一天的过了

星期六早上特别美好

醒来的我 又哭了

最近的我 都是眼泪陪伴我入睡

可能是因为雨季嘛



哈哈

晴天娃娃

A night with.

our drinks =)

A night with sadness.

thanks alice, shinx and others acc.

@enigma, nice live band and songs.

i gotta let go. letting go all.

21-10-2009

２１－１０－２００９

i hate you!


i gonna hate u forever!


why m i so stupid?
why i wanna cry?
RACHEL GOH!

ｓｔｏｐ　ｔｈｉｎｋｉｎｇ　ｏｆ　ｉｔ！



我知道　　我早就应该知道

我们只是陌生人！









我输了。

想说

最近做工了

只想说，

我还是很想念你！

就让工作冲淡一切吧。。。

晴天娃娃

我喜欢晴天娃娃~可能是因为我不喜欢雨。

它是祈求天晴的娃娃~

我喜欢晴天，美好的一天

是晴天娃娃召唤太阳盛开~

“阳光会绽放为爱相信的雨滴，因为晴天娃娃的祈求”

晴天娃娃 给我带来美好的一天

晴天娃娃 让我的每一天都阳光灿烂

晴天娃娃

…… ……

不知道，晴天娃娃

有没有悲伤

但它的悲伤不让别人看到

只有下雨，

它独自一人悲伤

所以，

我要每一天都阳光，

不让它悲伤。。

有这样一首歌谣:

晴天娃娃，晴天娃娃，但愿明天是个好天气。如果是这样，就给你个金铃铛。 晴天娃娃，晴天娃娃，但愿明天是个好天气。如果是这样，就给你美味的酒。 晴天娃娃，晴天娃娃，但愿明天是个好天气。如不是这样，就把你的头割下。

日记

做不成情侣
就做朋友

这种感觉也很好啊~





没烦恼^___^

18/10/2009



HappY DeEpaVali ~~~


-晴天娃娃-

阳子与晴天娃娃

“晴天娃娃^^”

“hihii”

“还记得我吗？
你还睡过我的旁边，我的背还让你靠过。”

“我没印象哦。”
（我在心想，是你吗？阳子吗？眼泪慢慢地流了下来）



“哦！我好像有些印象！可是不知你是不是我印象中的你..”

“说说看。” 阳子回答

阳子也说了：
“去年的某一天，晴天娃娃和阳子在msn聊过天， 而且那个傻晴天还说找不到阳子的背所以 睡不着。
“ 我也很想跟她说
我很想她。。”


晴天说： “我记得以前有一个阳子 是在晴天进入 ‘她们’这个世界前时认识的，我也记得她让我在她背睡着过， 阳子时常哄晴天睡着的。我记得。。。” 我笑着说
“阳子。。”
“ 你知道吗， 晴天娃娃受伤了。。”

“受伤了吗？？痛不痛” 阳子说

“嗯，很痛。。
我知道我根本就不应该进入她们的世界” 我哭着回答

阳子对晴天说了
“没关系啦，还有阳子在。会疼你， 至少还有我.....
我。。。很想你， 受伤了，就应该哭， 但是哭了以后，要比哭之前坚强一点点
知道吗？”

“可是晴天娃娃不见了”

“为什么？ 晴天不能不见...”
“晴天在哭吗...?”
“ 你知道吗？阳子现在一个人在日本，这个月就一年了。”
（我很惊讶，原来我一年没见阳子了！她人已在一个很远的地方了。）

阳子一个人在那工作，而且是一个人过去的。
她也说了在日本是不一样的，他们不在乎别人怎样看的！ 就做自己想做的事所以我要学学她们哦~

“受了伤的晴天要加油...知道吗？”
“还有...不是每个女生都会让人受伤的...因为至少我认为..我不会。”阳子说

“阳子... 抱抱...”

阳子:“^^很用力的抱着你了，感觉到了吗？辛苦你了，不要再让自己受伤了哦... 嘻嘻，因为阳子也会痛..^^这一年里...也很想晴天哦...”
“如果你真的来到日本..阳子就不会再是player了...”

晴天很惊讶的问了
“player?阳子不要再当player了，好吗？”

聊着聊着。。。

（真的不想看到阳子这样，心疼了，只想说，不管你在那边多么寂寞，要记得至少还有我这个晴天娃娃一直都在你心里陪着你^^)

真的很开心，也没想过阳子还记得我这个晴天娃娃~
更没想过会在遇回阳子~

阳子~我们一起加油哦！！

Accident

15-10-2009
a bad day with accident!

加油

刚看了你的那一页

我的心 渐渐的痛

我到底怎么了？


我流泪

是因为看到你的不开心

看到你写的最近

看到你的烦恼。。。


“对爱情自己是太自信
失败了我输得起
过去，已经过去
眼前你要珍惜！”

只希望你过得 开开心心^^

My feeling

weird feeling...

happy?

upset?

depression?

stress?

emo?

sad?

excited?

nervous?

regret?

this is wat u make me feel like...

p/s: "how you treat me, and that's how i gonna treat u.."
u treat me like a dog, i'll treat u back the same..
and if u treat me like a princess, i'll treat u back the same too =)

Falling for you

love this song so much =)
it's so meaningful and nice~

"I think i'm falling for you~"

"I don't know but i think i maybe
Falling for you, dropping so quickly
Maybe i should keep this to myself
Waiting until i know you better
I am trying not to tell you but i want to
I'm scared of what you'll say so i'm hiding what i'm feeling
But i'm tired of holding this inside my head~

I've been spending all my time just thinking about you
I don't know what to do, I think I'm falling for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now i found you, i don't know what to do,
I think i'm falling for you, I'm falling for you~"

is special for you ^__^

Not fair

Oh, he treats me with respect, he says he loves me all the time
He calls me fifteen times a day, he likes to make sure that I'm fine
You know I've never met a man, who's made me feel quite so secure
He's not like all them other boys, they're all so dumb and immature

There's just one thing that's getting in the way
When we go up to bed, you're just no good,it's such a shame
I look into your eyes, I want to get to know you
And then you make this noise and it's apparent it's all over

It's not fair and I think you're really mean
I think you're really mean, I think you're really mean
Oh, you're suppose to care
But you never make me scream, you never make me scream

Oh, it's not fair and it's really not okay
It's really not okay, it's really not okay
Oh, you're supposed to care
But all you do is take, yeah, all you do is take

Oh, I lie here in the wet patch in the middle of the bed
I'm feeling pretty damn hard done by, I spent ages giving head
Then I remember all the nice things that you ever said to me
Maybe I'm just overreacting, maybe you're the one for me

There's just one thing that's getting in the way
When we go up to bed, you're just no good, it's such a shame
I look into your eyes,I want to get to know you
And then you make this noise and it's apparent it's all over

It's not fair and I think you're really mean
I think you're really mean, I think you're really mean
Oh, you're supposed to care
But you never make me scream, you never make me scream

Oh, it's not fair and it's really not okay
It's really not okay, it's really not okay
Oh, you're supposed to care
But all you do is take, yeah, all you do is take

p/s: nice song but stupid lyrics..! lolx..

失眠-许慧欣

Evonne許慧欣-失眠MV

失眠
许慧欣

拥着温暖的棉被 想着冰冷的甜美
用尽力气快点睡 反而累得不能睡
枕头保留你气味 眼眶失去你点缀
只愿工作的汗水 能够冲淡我眼泪

时间万岁 我总会无力伤悲
梦幻一场 不是为了午夜梦回
时间万岁 证明和你不配
感情受伤 不该连累 眼圈发黑

不断轮回的玫瑰 憔悴过后是妩媚
想念带来了约会 失眠逼出了体会

时间万岁 我总会无力伤悲
梦幻一场 不是为了午夜梦回
时间万岁 证明和你不配
感情受伤 不该连累 眼圈发黑

如果真不能睡 该清醒着面对沉
醉在美化的过去 是种罪
还得为明天预备 还没有条件崩溃
失眠就换上新的香水

时间万岁 我总会无力伤悲
梦幻一场 不是为了午夜梦回
时间万岁 证明和你不配
眼泪无知 欲睡又醒 陈旧玫瑰

假

就让你放假吧

玩得累了

就该放个长假

好好的休息

好好的充电



我想说






你不是一个橡皮擦

YOU should think urself

u know i really angry vf wat that "someone" told others

pls shut ur mouth up la

this all is non of ur f*cking business

wat i hv done is non of ur business too

come on

ppl who hv fun in the club doesn't mean anything

drink, drank, drunk!

the word "da ke lun" and "good bye kiss (jz lips to lips)"
is totally different!!!

why don't u tell others that i kissed with eunice and xiao ting??????

why you only wan to mention YOU, ck and xiao xin?????!!!!
(this is wat u wanna tell others right?)

and pls DUN KEEP DENY wat u hv tell others!!

i really hate LIAR!

the word "friend" / "bro" is jz bullshit!!
never expect that u r jz same vf those 8 po...

watelse u told others u know urself!

you should THINK b4 SAY ANYTHING. BYE THEN!

p/s: I jz wan a peaceful life! leave me alone...!

我的心情

有人说
"我看到的你不再悲伤了。"

我笑着地回答了
"是吗?"

心想
“我真的开心了吗？”
“我真的变回了我自己吗？”

很想哭
可是眼泪不允许我再为她而流泪
就这样的麻醉自己
麻醉我的感情世界及我的生活。。。

我真的很坚强了
你看到了吗？
偶尔会流泪
偶尔还会想念你
偶尔还会大喊你的名字
可是这偶尔只会在我心里
没人会看见。。。。。。

Recently

ROM of Wan Roo^^

My beloved Hello Kitty^^

Jess & Rach vf our ice-cream^^


Woke up in the Saturday morning
went to kota kemuning buddhist society
for Wan Roo jie's ROM
and got to Sunway my old house to change the pad lock..

this day really make me fall and smile
bought my Hello Kitty crocs shoe
and fall down on the road (dam paiseh)
(i heard someone behind me was laughing like crazy but i jz stand up and walked away)
argh......! pain...

b4 the day of 10/10
*09/10/2009
6something in the evening, when i was driving, a careless motorbike bang my car and the person (2 young indian girls) fell down and injured.. damn!!!!* i went down and asked for help to drive them to the nearest hospital.. this was my 1ST time accident and the girl were in the situation of semi concious! luckily she were fine after staying in the wad for 6hours! and i didn't do any police report (everyone ask me to do a police report) but the girl and the family asked nt to.. hmm.. i m still thinking wat should i do.... is this a correct decision....? hmm....

this few days really really dam bad luck and good luck as well!!!!!
there r still some story about it but i really lazy to write....
ask me if wanna know~ hahaaa

08/10/2009

laz night went to "yam char"
gosh..nvr tot i'll met so many of 'them'
i should put on my make up

i tot "u" were there laz night
luckily i and my secondary friends sit inside
and it make me so nervous
my heart beat was so fast
argh.. i told myself

RachelGoh calm down!!!!!
"for wat u scared?"
"for wat u nervous?"
"for wat u wanna upset?"

she is the one who dumped you!
she is the one who changed her heart!

if she is really there
you should walk to her
smile and say "hi" to her..
all my friends said that too..
but i still couldn't do it..!
Argh...! stupid me!
there r too many of ur shadows in my mind still..

for my dearest
*p/s: i m lucky that i hv you all to come over and acc me..
"if nt i'll keep nervous and dunno wat to do..
muax~ ^^

continue with pool----->

----> then club

----->home

got no key home after club
dam pissed off
so i hv to overnight at my friend's house
and slept until now 2:35pm


TIRED like hell ==""""""""

don't cry

Tears is a very precious things
that will only found in the living things
especially Human

and recently i found that too much tears around me
but nt mine la of course

my dearest friends
stop ur tears
and dry ur eyes

think positive
everything will be alright
no matter what happened
there r still a way out
don't cry for someone doesn't worth it

and i found my way out
and i believe u'll found it soon
cheers


a thing that really make me feel like..hmm...
how to say...
that day one of my friend called me up
and cried..... and i dunno wat the hell is going on with her
she cried because of her results...
and i like....hmm.... i really dunno wat to do...
dear, college given us another chance
and this time we really hv to pass the paper k..
don't be so sad and down
AND never try to think of doing any silly things
if not i gonna slap until u wake up...!

很空

我能说些什么
我什么都不是
我已经慢慢地放下了
“你呢？”

有很多疑问
听着你说她的好
她的温柔
看见你对她的爱护
及操心
答案就让我猜好了
这些都不重要了

我真的不介意 吗？
我有那么大方 吗？
嗯，这些只有我自己懂。。。

(不开心，出去走走。。。）

一定要听的

徐佳瑩 - 失落沙洲
这首歌，是描寫『失去』的一首歌，
細微地勾勒情感遠離的惆悵與 心酸。

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊

我不是一定要你回來
只是當又把回憶翻開
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

你听见了吗。。。。。。。。。
只想知道你过得好吗？
过得开心吗？

Moving back

04/10/2009
[moving to my new house]------>


today i moved to my new house
finally i leave subang and went back to klang
but it jz for temporary
the feeling of moving back
moving back to a place that i really belongs to
is like i m moving back home again
(but nt moving my own home la)
we packed, we throw, we cleaned and we leaved
the lorry reached @10am
coz of our things is too many
so the lorry hv to come 2rounds
we moved our beds, cuoboards, sofa, tv, dining table, study table and so on....

about 5pm everything is moved
but we haven't unpack yet..
but everyone seems so tired
so we decided to come on next day
a tired day
+moody day
Rachel say good bye to the house
the memories
and "you"
bye~

tired >< i'm holding the glass top of the dining table
dam heavy..

Our Conversation

i m so happy because of
wat? ^___^

She said:"Ya, actually i would like to invite you to Kemuning Buddhist club to view my registration of marriage day in 10102009 at 2pm"
(wow..it really surprised me! well, i m thinking wat should i do when i attend?hmm..)

She said:"Dear Rachel, Thanks. Many thing must do lor....you must dress beautifully, but not too sexy because holy places mar. secondly perfume yourself. Drive to the place. Then you will see me there with hand holding flowers. See me sign, exchange ring, finally take photo with me. thank you."
(haha~ so happy that wan roo jie found her love one^^)

She said:"Do you think that the somebody loving u so much? worthy for you to sacrifice 1 semester and your life. you are so young, you still have beautiful and colourful days in future. Just forget the someone. Yes, we are lucky becos we stil have eyes, hand, leg to get throught every challenge we have. Love yourself becos this world there is stil many people care , concern about you."

(i really touch when she say that to me and i promised there is no more 2nd time, i nt gonna let anyone2 hurt me anymore and mess my life~!)

cheers~

2-Oct-2009

2Oct2009

Today i feel so nervous
wat kind of feel is this?
i should be happy right?
but seems like i m worrying something
wat happened to me?

Laz night my house was having a farewell
i going to leave the house at pjs7
and move to somewhere else
is sad to leave the house becoz there r so many memories
although is jz a short period
and u edy leave me for about 1month plus
but ur shadow still there that i could nvr 4get
laz night was talking vf my friend-knompy on the playgroud
as like wat she said
delete all our photos, it could make me feel better
the moment she ask me to delete
i really dunno wat to do
i don't want to delete...
i told her i dun wan to delete u...
i will put u down but i'll nvr 4get u..
coz i dun wan2 4get u.........
and finally i changed my wallpaper~

Something i wanna say to u
Alice.. Be strong..
since that day i knew u, i can c ur sadness through ur eyes
i know what happened recently really make u very upset
but pls stay strong.. u r a smart girl i know..
don't becoz of this all stupid ppl and let u fall..
doesn't worth it u noe..
and like wat everyone said
you deserve someone better
maybe is nt the right timing yet
don't rush ok..
if u nid someone there for u, i m here
i m always there for u..
-Rachel-

。。。

我到底喜欢谁？
我自己也分不清了
一个是去爱
一个是被爱
还有一个是爱过
我也不知我把你放下了吗？

曾经有人问过我
“你会选择去爱还是被爱呢？”

“我觉得我应该会选择去爱因为如果被爱的我是不会珍惜对方的。。”

我有想过放弃去爱的念头然后就接受被爱
可是想想了，如果被爱可是我一点都不爱那个人，怎么办呢？
这也不是很痛苦吗？

那如果我喜欢过那个人
可是因为时间的关系变成了朋友
然后当他告诉我其实他在几个月前有想过要追求我的
只是他认为他追不起我
（怎么会追不起我?我心想）
为什么大家都这么说呢?
他说他不喜欢被拒绝的感受
（这当然啊。。谁喜欢哦？）
我告诉了他
“如果你没试过去争取机会，你怎么会懂那结果会是怎样呢？”

Slow

without "you" , "you" , "you"...
i m still looking forward for my life

01 Oct 2009
12:26am
-I m still awake and going to sleep soon
but this few days my stomach really nt feeling well
feel wanna vomit too
today i went out to fetch my granny
while driving, i felt like everything is getting slower and slower
slow until i felt like so blank in my mind
after sent my granny home, i went back to my home awhile
hoh~ home sweet home...
my home that really belongs to me
and i m belongs to my home
took a short nap and at last
i hv to leave my home too..
today everything was so slow...
maybe few days ago kept hang out vf friends
and now suddenly got time for me to rest and rethink everything...
argh.. i wanna rest rest rest....!
Rest and start a new long journey~~~~

for you

all ur words cross my heart
and there is always a lie behind it
baby boy
can you save me out of this mess
but it seems worst
and i wanted to say
i really fall for u..

-Rachel-

If u r NOT

WARNING!!
If u r not my friends...
pls do not view my profile...
move ur mouse to the upper right there and click x...
thanks yo
arigato...
peace...

不要拥有就不会失去

我知道我不能拥有
也不敢去拥有
所以选择了不要拥有
我。。。
害怕孤单的感觉
害怕寂寞的感觉
害怕失落的感觉
害怕黑暗的感觉
更害怕失去你的感觉
所以不要拥有就不会失去了。。。

Bitch!

do any of u heard b4
"barking dog will never bite ppl??"
and the barking's dogs following with 2 bitchs was out from cage few days ago...
ran to others house and bark like those mad dogs...
omg~~~~
pls go back to ur cage la..
my GOD!!!!
don't ever try to act like a good dog la.......
coz u all r idiot dogs!!
the another 2 such a bitchs!
and the funniest thing is...
mad dog summore wan2 judge on other's personality...
oh gosh....~~~~
DOGs has no qualified to judge on others...
coz they r DOGS...! XD

My heart said:

i dun care
i dun mind
i nt gonna care anything about u all anymore!!!
u all mess my life.....!
is this the life i wanted?
i m not belongs to ur world
but my heart was inside..
any guys can bring me out?
tried to loved..
tried to give up..
tried to cared..
but u all really mess my life vf ur fucking emotional life...!
*i hate to c ur life vf her
but i can't do anything
dislike..! and jealous..!
(nt for u asshole)

2day is my bro's b'day...
omg...! i 4get about it...!
jz now my daddy called me up..
and asked me did i wish my bro..
argh... my bro 21st b'day...
how could i 4get???
i wanted to wish my bro but i can't get him =(

*Bro, how r u?
r u fine with ur life at there?
hv anyone celebrate ur b'day with u at there?
don't feel lonely k... coz we r always here for u...
and at here..i wanted to wish u~
HaPpy 21st BirtHdaY ya~~
LOVE u so much...
wish u all the best...
take care ya...

argh................ i m so nervous....
wat should i do?
the coming monday is my orientation day for my internship..
and it gonna take me 3months time to finish it...
my placement is at Dessert's Bar...
but nt sure which dessert's bar..maybe subang, maybe k.l...
so my friends remember come visit me ya...

i still remember the previous intership that u still by my side...
u always fetch me up n down from my work..
everytime after work, i were so happy coz i know u r the 1st one i gonna meet later..
and sometimes u really make me so surprised...
suddenly appears after my work..
but now u r nt here anymore...
everything i hv to learn n do it myself...
i know is different between working and studying...
i still remember my 1st day of my previous intership...
i cried coz of i can't suit the life of working...
i dunnno how to handle all small matters...
and u were the one who teached me...
u teached me how to handle ppl's attitude..
how to make myself more happy..
and wake me up in the morning..
haha~
btw..wish u always happy ya ^^
treat ur next with ur heart too...

你

新的一天
我要从新做 我自己了~
我不会再找你了。。
你送我 的也掉了
我会好好地把它收着
因为不想再烦你了~
我知道我可以的。。
^________^

Hello Kitty系列

甜美又可爱的
Hello Kitty系列
Casio EXILIM z2

现在就想拥有~

。。。

我还是很不开心
我突然哭了
我骗不了自己还是那么的想念你
每当热闹结束后
我就是还是一个人
我很想念有你在我身边的时候
朋友都说我很执着
是因为我还放不下你
你说过我是你的公主
为什么你舍得把你的公主抛弃呢？

say goodbye to my facebook

i felt so sad vf my facebook
it gonna leave me too
is jz like how u leave me
maybe as like wat she said
fated to lost everything in once
i should think in positive
i should delete all my memories
4get about the past and those photos
jz let it be.......

不明白

我不明白很多很多东西
爱情不是很简单的吗?
为什么所有开始一定会有结束?
哎呀... 真的不明白...

昨晚我在沙滩上
看着天上有很多很多的星星
我也看见了你
不知现在的你如何呢..

Love Bike

someone was driving
and suddenly talked about love bite
my little bro started to curious and asked

br0: what is love....bi..te? bi..ke?

and suddenly in my mind.. can't think of anything

i said: is....love BIke.. motor bike... brroooong....

bro: ooh.. is love bike brooong... so wat's that?

i: when u c a couple kiss kiss.. it's wat love bike meant..

so whenever the couple sitting infront of me kiss each other..
my little bro will said.....

Brronnng.........

love this photo ^-^

20/09/09

@T-bowl

sudden

the scene that scared me
the dream that wake me
and i hope it nt gonna happen....
oh.. my god.. pls stop the bad scene and bad dream....
coz i wish you could always stay by my side
scared to lost you..
scared to have you..
and wish everything could be alright
and nt gonna change...

too much

i hv too many things wanna write..
too many things cross my mind..
wat should i write? huh..

19/9/09

saturday~ 19/09/09

huh~ wake up automatically at 9something
dunno y now adays can't really sleep more d
on9 awhile, listen song awhile
and my hand start to itchy
click click click~
boom.. the stupiak photos out
the more i c the more i hv no feel
thinking y m i so silly
y i so care few months ago
and i realize something~~
i m happy =)
huhu... jz wanna say thanks you thanks you..
for letting us go...
we r really different world
will nvr know each other
and now i found myself

myself that love FREEdom!
love to be an ordinary person
a very ordinary girl that love her life vF freedom ^-^
do wateva she like
wateva she felt
and express wateva she wan..
yeah*

love me with who i m
aand no hate in my life
don't mess vf my life if u dislike me
this wat i wanna say

wanna thanks to friends that always by my side
love u all so much~
wanna apologize to friends that i always not by ur side
i m sorry but will replace it k~
muax ~

当你想着我

当你想着我

点点的星空长长的银河
有你写过的歌
北半球是冬夜绵绵下着雪
多想你看见
弯弯的彩虹亮亮的天色
你是否快乐
抬头看看天有我在你的明天
别怕黑(我怕黑)
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在安静的时刻
同一个宇宙有两个尽头
我听见你的感动
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在喧哗的时刻
一个人寂寞两颗心都懂
我陪在你梦中拥抱你的温热
酸酸的想念甜甜的心愿
要等你实现
越长的时间我就越能够肯定
你最美（我最美）
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在安静的时刻
同一个宇宙有两个尽头
我听见你的感动
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在喧哗的时刻
一个人寂寞两颗心都懂
我陪在你梦中拥抱你的温热
说好了不让你太担忧
想念你的温柔
等到再见面我们也更成熟再不放手~
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在安静的时刻
同一个宇宙有两个尽头
我听见你的感动
当你想着我当你唱着歌
在喧哗的时刻
一个人寂寞两颗心都懂
我陪在你梦中拥抱你的温热
一个人寂寞两颗心都懂
我陪在你梦中拥抱你的温热

我是个笨蛋

笨蛋笨蛋笨蛋~~！！！

有时我还自以为自己很聪明
其实我是个超级大笨蛋！
我终于醒了。。
原来没有你的日子并不孤单
我还以为我不能没有你
还以为没有你的日子很孤单
可是并不是~

想回我们的过去
快乐的 成了我的回忆
悲哀的 成了我的记忆
一想到了 伤口就很痛
所以我选择 不想！

可是我还是一个大笨蛋~~~
想到你
我真的觉得我很笨耶。。

days without you

long long long time no write blog d~~

so miss u my baby blog.. coz you r the only one who knew me..
i been so tough for myself, my friends and family..
coz i dun wann anyone to c me like this..

when the day i went into hospital to wash my stomach..
coz i hv done some silly thing becoz of her..
i felt so down so down..
i jz wish she was beside me..
holding my hands and ask call me BB..

everything is jz end like this....
i tried to hold her..but she was leaving too..
what we promised each others all became air and bubbles...
she is the one who asked me to hold her tight, nt to let her go..
but now she is the one who wan2 go..
and left me behind here all alone..

i felt my world is so empty without her...
i realize many things after she went out from my world..
i dun nid anything, i only want her...!
but where is she now???

everyday i dream of her, crying in my dream and ask her nt to leave me..
this edy become my wound... a wound that will never been erase 4EVA!!!!
i hate you becoz i loved you so much!

now adays without her in my life..
all our memories keep flash back in my mind....

our 1st meet.. my b'day.. pd trips.. langkawi trips... CNY at her house, at bukit bintang c fireworks.. at suppper club, poppy, barce and at euphoria ( she gv someone pok mong coz of me o.O hahaha very funny right?) every single things all in my mind.......

i wish i could go back those places alone... and jz think of her...
imagine if i at langkawi the house we stay b4, the beach that we overnight at there...
i miss it......... i know u won't acc me back there d...
i won't 4get everything everything......................

my family tot i was too stress in my studies...
so they very worried about me...
i dunno who can i tell about eveyrthing in my hearts...

i wan2 go to beach... and shout..............!
shout loudly....

i got so many things wanna ask u babe..
i saw recently u r so happy with ur life without me..
m i really so bad?
i still remember wat u wrote for me on my christmas gift..
i really very sad can't make u happy...
if the time could turn back.. i wish we r jz best friends..
i reaally can't accept the truth without u in my life..
do u know u'r part of my life..
how could i accept the truth?
2 cure ways.... 1)pretend u r dead, 2)keep tell myself u'll come back on someday..
and i choosed the 2nd... i m living in my own world.. my own imagination..
i kept all the msg that i sent to u in my draft...and jz pretend i'd send the msg to u...
m i crazy?? it jz becoz i too miss u....
i nid to go every week base on my appointment with counseling psychology...
i couldn't found anyone to talk vf my heart...
is jz counseling psychology....
m i mad now???
i wish i m totally mad and jz leave this place...
i wish i could close my eyes and never open...
i wish i never born in this world..
i know the counseling section could help me to recover but it's oso jz depends on me...
whether i wanna recover anot...
although my mind recover... how about my heart??
who gonna heal my heart??
can a doctor jz kill me with his knife pls.....
im suffer!!!!!!!!!!!
god pls help me out of here...!

i m so sad....
i still remember wat we said...
"how if one day i become crazy?"
"no matter wat happened, i'll still will take care on you and nt gonna leave you.."
and this wat i promised you...
"how about if i dead, i become ghost.. will u scared on me?"
u jz smile to me...

sigh...

20/4/2009

what happened to us???

everything was started since laz few weeks...

argueing... quarreling....

and until laz night, everything was really not in control...

as like what she said, i lost my patient and temper toward her...

because of this... i lost her...

the feeling of losing someone i love, finally i knew...

i never hv this kind feeling b4, i never been hurt b4..

but this relationship really kill me...

i cried every second i think of her

i cried when i awake...

i dream of her when i 4asleep...

i miss her......

but do she miss me??

she hide herself and i can't even get her...

i called her, her friends but can't get her as well...

i can't sleep....

and i take alcohol and smoke....

to make myself sleep...

i can't imagine my life without her...

but i hv to let go...

becoz this is the decision...

i think she is oso trying to suit the life that without me...

we knew we'll seperate one day...

but never know that it come so fast...

the day that without her is so lonely...

but i'll make myself to suit in...

and will try to 4get about her...

i deleted all our photos...

our memories...

and our future...

this is a world that really not belongs to me...

i shouldn't step in...

but i never regret...

thanks for ur everything...

[March]

20 March was my last day of internship, felt so happy and wonder what could i do after that.

went to pyramid jz after my work at 7pm!

felt so excited while waiting for 7PM and finally reached 7pm so we were free........woohooo....
i still remember the last scene when we went back... walked with happily leaving the hell (but not really a hell la) hahahha



21 March we made a appointment for our nail at 10AM in the morning at pyramid...
i hv choosen 3D art for my thumbnail on my leg, and a set of 3D art too for my finger nails!
that moment after my nail done... i felt like... oh gosh, finally my nails can be shown to everyone (my previous nails were suck) and after that i went to find my dearest darling...
we went to bukit tinggi jusco (but seems like ntg we can do at there) so we choosed to go to 1U tot there will be a movie that we wanted to watched but finally we went back to pyramid (my second home) to catch that movie TALES OF DESPERAUX on midnight.... what a cute moviie with a little cute animal...



25 March i went to midvalley regarding to a group discussion research based on hospitality...
we talked about our studies about hospitality... there were only 8 students that are from different well-known hospitality colleges, taylors, sunway,kdu and berjaya students. This is the 1st time i went to this kind of group discussion.. it was great!! u can tell out what u dislike and what u prefered or anything that u would like to speech out for ur college and they might think of it.... and if it approve, then ur college have to take it as well...! Anyway jz wanted to say taylors is the best no matter how...



27 March we went to Kim Gary for our lunch... with annie and janice and we met out with weng keong, out coursemate that internship at upstair japanese restaurant.. as usual, what girls like to do??? GOSSIP!!! but this day we gossip not realy much.... and after that, we went to bought esther's b'day present...
at night, we were invited by Gaf, Esther's bf to TGI Friday subang parade, a long table that can fit in about 15-20 person.... many of our coursemate were there... ordered famous steaks and drinks... the foods at there really taste good! we talked, craped, laughed, took photos, and finally the moment of surprise for esther from gaf was out, CAKES! not only one but two... (wow, i felt so much wanted to eat the pandan cake, love pandan cakes) Esther was asked to stand on the chair while we were singing the b'day song for her, and hv to bend down to blows on the cakes that placed it on the end of the tables..!
after that, we continue with club... we went to helo bali... when the moment we step in, it was so empty like no body.... the songs was not really good....n everything feels bad..... i slept in the club >.<

Esther's b'day with her cakes.

Drinks at TGI

Srawberry drink =)

28 March we jz went to supper club... oh gosh, this day was so bad... and the club was haunted! but not really haunted... jz what we saw, a person (not sure is a butch or guy) suddenly sit down on the dance floor... and been take it to the side sofa by others... she keep shake her head in really slow motion with no sence... sound crazy right? evryone thought that she took pils. but whn the moment i looked at her jz a turn of my head, i felt so cold in sudden and scared!! she was really dun even know what she was doing, jz shake her head left to right in very slow motion... and this was my nightmare for about 3nights... can't sleep with the light off....

Dardar and i =)

peace..

30 March Finally i can met up with once of my coursemate that nt attend to esther's b'day party, nicholas.. and oso janice and annie... we went to cheong k (really long time didn't go) at redbox (i prefered neway).... about 5.40pm we catched a movie, UNBORN a ghost movie.... for me i think this movie was still ok... not really scary and boring....

took when boring..

My cute little baby hamster =D

History of Ice-skates

The oldest pair of skates known date back to about 3000 B.C., found at the bottom of a lake in Switzerland. The skates were made from the leg bones of large animals, holes were bored at each end of the bone and leather straps were used to tie the skates on. An old Dutch word for skate is "schenkel" which means "leg bone".

Around the 14th Century, the Dutch started using wooden platform skates with flat iron bottom runners. The skates were attached to the skater's shoes with leather straps. Poles were used to propel the skater. Around 1500, the Dutch added a narrow metal double edged blade, making the poles a thing of the past, as the skater could now push and glide with his feet (called the "Dutch Roll").

In 1848, E. V. Bushnell of Philadelphia, PA invented the first all steel clamp for skates.
In 1865, Jackson Haines, a famous American skater, developed the two plate all metal blade. The blade was attached directly to Haines' boots. The skater became famous for his new dance moves, jumps and spins. Haines added the first toe pick to skates in the 1870's, making toe pick jumps possible.

The first artificial ice rink (mechanically-refrigerated) was built in 1876, at Chelsea, London, England and was named the Glaciarium. It was built near the King's Road in London by John Gamgee.
In 1914, John E. Strauss, a blade maker from St. Paul, Minnesota, invented the first closed toe blade made from one piece of steel, making skates lighter and stronger.
The largest outdoor ice rink is the Fujikyu Highland Promenade Rink in Japan, built in 1967 and boasts an ice area of 165,750 square feet-- equal to 3.8 acres.

History of Ballet

Dance in various forms seems to have been part of human society since the beginning. It has evolved simultaneously in different countries and cultures and is used to convey all manners of emotions, beliefs and activities. Many kinds of dances are associated with certain costumes or styles of dress, and ballet dancing is no exception. A lot of choice exists when choosing the right clothing and ballet shoes.

Dancing has been of great importance to people of all social classes throughout history. In the late 17th century it became popular to choreograph some dances, and the aristocracy often had tutors who would instruct their children on the etiquette of dancing as well as moves. This meant that they had the know how to succeed in their social circles and could interact effectively with peers at dances, which were extremely fashionable at the time. Ballet was widely choreographed as well, and there are many conventions that are still followed in classical ballet today.
From the outset, ballet sought to capture the essence of nature and of emotions, and express these in a skilful, artistic and often dramatic way. Ballet clothing is designed to allow for freedom of movement, as are ballet shoes. All kinds of ballet shoes are made to be strong and provide protection for a dancer’s feet, some even allow for a move to be performed more easily and last longer. These specialist shoes are of great importance; many ballet dancers find getting their first pair of pointe slippers an exciting occasion, marking progression in their dancing ability. Shoes in general are very important in many cultures. Fashion predominates which shoes are worn quite frequently in modern times, but shoes seem to have a deeper meaning to many. The story of Cinderella and her glass slipper is passed from generation to generation, and similar stories exist from all sorts of cultures.

Ballet itself has inspired many stories and films. This is hardly surprising as it is an area for which some feel a great passion; some dedicate their entire lives to the world of ballet. Being a ballet dancer on tour can be extremely challenging, both physically and emotionally (as families are often far away). Some films and TV shows have drawn particular emphasis to the fact that ballet is seen by some to be a career only for women. Reassuring budding male ballet dancers that there is nothing effeminate in their choice is of great importance. After all, ballet requires great strength, stamina, skill and charisma. Like any kind of sport, ballet requires hours of practice and hard work in order to enable the amazing results spectators and audiences get to see. Male or female, the ability to dance in such a spectacular way is a demonstration of talent, endurance and hard work. Ballet dancers often speak of a great rush of adrenaline just before a performance, brought on by excitement, and often by nerves in the younger or less experienced!In short, dance is not easy, even the best dancers need to put their all into it. Ballet requires practice, talent, showmanship and of course the right clothes and ballet shoes!

My favourite Pink Ballet shoes =)

2/4

ring ring ring~~~ my phone alarm rang....
and i woke up....

again another day...
thinking wat should i wear...
and about 9.45am i went out...!

went for my facial...
about 2months i didn't do my facial
and finally i got the appointment at 10am 2/4..
and because of my facial i can't go to work...
it took about 1 1/2 hours for my biocell facial...
and then shifted me to another room for my milk bath treatment.....

i LOVE milk.... and imagine bathing v it...
it feel great!
a girl who served me, help me to massage with the hot milk to my whole body...
and after that, i can enjoyed in the bathtub..
beside they provided some cookies, sweets and a cup of milo just beside it!!
while lying inside the bathtub, i can enjoyed with it too...
wat a wonderful life~~

as what my dardar say, i hv to find someone reallly rich...
because so young already got such a luxury life...

3months

3 Months Holidays

huh... =.="
Everyone feel happy when having their holidays...
but...
for me.....

i feel boring...!

and the holidays not only 1week or 2weeks
but is 3MONTHS!!!

HElp....

everyday wake up from sleep....
take my shower...
dress up nice nice...
make up myself...
have lunch with friends...
shopping...
shop shop shop til drop...
and now become po kai d...
thinking to find a part time job
but sometimes feel lazy for it...

friends ask for:

yam char???
huh... lazy la... ntg to gossip oso...

clubbing???
dun wan la... i old d... shake awhile oso wan sleep d...

window shopping???
aiyo... can c oso cannot buy... rather stay at home...

shopping???
no money la... wait next week la...

cheong k???
hmm... see 1st k? comfirm with u later...but feel lazy...

study???
pls la... now is my holidays... dun talk about study...

travel???
haiz... friends not comfirm yet... how to go...

online chit chat???
my pc got virus can't on9 lo...

sms???
i jz do my nail, lazy to press le...

go for a movie???
dun wan la, i only wan to watch horror movie or ghost movie... now oso dun hv...

bowling???
not interested...

so boring with my life with so many excuses.....

but i feel happy with sleeping....
haha

害怕的心情

突然走到一半

我累了
我哭了

突然间，我很怕失去你的感觉
我感到很寂寞
很孤单

听回以前我爱听的歌
突然间就好像回到了从前的我

翻页每个想你的夜晚
我很想念你

就是这突然间
让我慢了下来
想一想
我是否真的拥有属于自己的爱情呢？
我真的那么幸福吗？
我们真的能长久吗？
你真的爱我吗？

我哭了。。。

我害怕。。
很害怕。。
失去你的感觉。。
很害怕被抛弃的感觉。。

总觉得自己不可能有属于自己的爱情。。
才那么几个月。。
我很害怕再走下去。。

走得越久
感情越深
我害怕当我要珍惜你的时候
你就默默地慢了下来
甚至抛弃我。。

我真的很害怕。。
不知应不应该走下去呢。。

一年多的感情都可以那么容易说放就放
那我这几个月的感情怎么说呢？？

白色情人节

白色情人节

明天三月十四日是大家所谓的白色情人节

有人说，

白色情人节是回复情人节的告白的一天

通常大家都会在情人节的时候告白

但却得不到答案

那在这一个月内就是考虑的时期啦！

如果你也喜欢那个跟你告白的人，

那一定要给个答复哦！

告诉那个人你也喜欢他/她

那两个人就会开心地在一起了

也有人说，

从前从前，有一个很痴情的男生爱上了一个有病的女生

其实他们都是相爱的

在2月14日，男的就跟那女的告白

而那女的就答应了在一个月后就会给个答复

但老天爷总是不让相爱的人在一起

那女的等不到一个月后就去世了

一个月后的当天3月14日

那男的才发现自己最爱的人已死了

所以他很伤心很伤心

所以就把这一天取为

白色情人节

和他已去世的爱人庆祝

所以如果有了情人的恋人
一定要好好珍惜对方哦！

白色情人节快乐~

Trust

never knew everything will become like now

everything is jz like the previous

my previous life

i tot everything would change

since i met you

but you r jz like my previous ex

everyone in this world is jz the same

no one will understand what i felt

and i m always the bad person

ok well, i love to become a bad person

i will never show anyone how i feel

coz i dun wanna anyone pity me

jz want everyone hate me!

everything is jz started with a TRUST or not

either u trust her or not

if u trust what she said

u'll never fall into a hill

and if u don't even wanna listen to her

u'll fall into the hill deeper and deeper

actually everything is jz very simple and easy

look further and u'll find the way out

if u lock urself here

u'r jz killing urself and me as well

stay calm and be what u r

and everything will be alright

trust me

Hello Kitty @ mac

Hello Kitty Edition
@ MAC

my collection of hello kitty

Hello kitty special limited edition @ MAC !

I found it @ pyramid last Saturday and i bought 1 powder foundation RM92 + 1 eye shadow palette RM150. Many of others sold out at pyramid.

On this Monday, i went to Pavillion to search for the others...
Thanks god that gave me found another 1 Lipgloss RM62 and 1 Lipstick RM62 (it was those colours that left)

I still dun wan to give up, and FINALLY i found another 2 Lipgloss and 1 Lipstick at KLCC..!
and not only this.... the promoter of MAC that served me is really so friendly..

She told me that she bought 1 Blusher and 2 Lip Balm and asked me whether i wan it anot..
so of course i'll buy it down...

I felt so happy becoz i got the hello kitty edition but not complete yet..

I Love Hello Kitty =)

a short dairy of mine

Finally one month past~~~~

many things happened in this one month.....
i got another 16days to go..
to be a receptionist!!

actually everything is jz easy
if u can manage to handle all the guests!!
there r many kind of human nature...
some guests are very friendly
but there are also many fussy guests that i hate the most!!!

ishhhhsss!!! thought urself very rich arr?????!
receptionist is oso a human..!
can u all pls treat us as a human and respect us....!
money is nt everything.. blaaaa......

but i m quite happy to be a receptionist while having my internship..
i hv to be socialize..
friendly..
smile all the time..
and be more patient..

hahahaha after my internship..
i'll be free...

wowooooowhooooo......
i can fly...
i wanna rest , sleep sleep and play play play.....!

while this few days.... i can't c my dardar..
coz dardar edy went back to cyber T.T
miss my dar so much......
but without my dardar here by my side..
i hv to be more independent..

it jz only 3months with dardar
as like what dar said
hope can 2gether with me nt count by month
but count by years........
i oso hope we can hv a stable relationship....
jz scared one day dardar will leave me...
huh... dun dare to think....

then think about play......
i wanna go to thailand when the splashing water days
wanna go play water water water...
and wanna go overseas....

going to off then.... good night =)

Last day of holidays

The last day of holiday....

finally and finally my holidays is finish and i going to training..!
what is in my mind?
nervous? curious? happy? lazy? sleepy? tired? wondering?
everything came out from my mind.......
argh..! i dun wan2 go 4 training...!

everytime when thinking of working...
i will start moody thinking of my freedom...
it will tie my up from my FREEDOM!

i can't wake up late!
i hv to be on time for work!
i can't go back earlier!
i can't on9!
i hv to follow thier rules!
i can't go back home on weekend!
i hv to be discipline!
i can't meet my friends!
i can't do anything that i want to....!!

BUT everything is just 7WEEKS...
7weeks is jz a short period
very fast.. and soon..
everything will be alright..

2night i gonna stay at my friend's house at cheras
and 2moro gonna start my internship..
and i'll be staying in the hostel that they provided...
hope that the hostel is clean and what i imagined!
so when i'm staying at there...
i'll be very seldom on9!!

catch me soon

Day 5

Day 5 of CNY 30/01/2009 Friday

Day5 of CNY, i woke up at 1/2pm
coz the previous night, we went to barcelona..
so i was really tired..
after woke up, we decided to go for our lunch..
Bah Kut Teh..!
yummy....

and at night...
we went for steamboat...
wow... yummy yummy...
one day can eat 2different kind of delicious food..!
really happy =)

and i found a very special cigarettes...
(cigarettes that r from japan)
nice??




took this pic while eating steamboat......




terter and ah beh...




akiyo.. xiao xin.. and Rach..




dardar and i..... blur blur pic... blek =p




after steamboat... we went back to jess's house...
sammi was there too..
heheh
and we start gamble again....
and i learned how to play IN BETWEEN...
it was really a cool game..so chi kek..
and at last the money accumulate til 900+..
and got it by a guy..
he was so lucky..
how good if i got the money...
and i stop gamble after awhile...
and went out with dardar to mcD..
coz dardar owe me a Fillet O Fish..
hehehehhe =D