20/4/2009

what happened to us???

everything was started since laz few weeks...

argueing... quarreling....

and until laz night, everything was really not in control...

as like what she said, i lost my patient and temper toward her...

because of this... i lost her...

the feeling of losing someone i love, finally i knew...

i never hv this kind feeling b4, i never been hurt b4..

but this relationship really kill me...

i cried every second i think of her

i cried when i awake...

i dream of her when i 4asleep...

i miss her......

but do she miss me??

she hide herself and i can't even get her...

i called her, her friends but can't get her as well...

i can't sleep....

and i take alcohol and smoke....

to make myself sleep...

i can't imagine my life without her...

but i hv to let go...

becoz this is the decision...

i think she is oso trying to suit the life that without me...

we knew we'll seperate one day...

but never know that it come so fast...

the day that without her is so lonely...

but i'll make myself to suit in...

and will try to 4get about her...

i deleted all our photos...

our memories...

and our future...

this is a world that really not belongs to me...

i shouldn't step in...

but i never regret...

thanks for ur everything...